Beverly's Thoughts, News, and Journey

Wow it  seems as if time has passed by so fast. But to be honest I hope next year would be a bit more better compared to this year I have been through some ups and some crazy miserable downs. some things that have happen that I thought would never ever happen actually did and now I'm using it as a learning experience and there is nothing wrong with that. When it comes to my weight of course I haven't lost any, neither have I gained. which I cant say it's a good thing since one of my major goal is to lose weight! but when it comes to not working and having to depend on others it can be quite difficult if that a hindering process that I'm trying to get myself out of by looking for work but  hardly ever anyone is hiring so now I'm just desperate.  but once I do find work I would be able to focus on taking care of me once and for all. I can't allow myself to be like this and be in area  that I'm not even happy, I just can't keep neglecting myself too man

It is not unusual or unknown for black women to have weight problems. sometimes I wonder why are there so many Black women that are overweight or Obese? to some point I wonder when it comes to the weight do we as black women self sabotage our own health for the sake of being thick or just not wanting to be skinny. or is it the "big is beautiful mantra" Some people may think the reason why so many black women are overweight because Black men are known to like big butts or breasts. not that I'm trying to say black men are the cause or its their fault. but when it comes to black men liking big butts or breasts I would say that its just a minor myth or something silly that people made up because after all you cant speak for everyone and their preference or desires. or could it be that black women just don't want to sweat out their perms or relaxers or is it cause of food and the prices since the bad stuff such as white flour is cheaper. I'm not trying to degrade

its not as entertaining no more like it used to be.  so I have growed out out of it. maybe someday I'll create a new account but until then I'm gone. I only have one other account and that is facebook. if you need it here it is www.facebook.com/beverly.barnes1 I think.