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its New Years Eve!

Wow it  seems as if time has passed by so fast.

But to be honest I hope next year would be a bit more better compared to this year I have been through some ups and some crazy miserable downs. some things that have happen that I thought would never ever happen actually did and now I'm using it as a learning experience and there is nothing wrong with that.

When it comes to my weight of course I haven't lost any, neither have I gained. which I cant say it's a good thing since one of my major goal is to lose weight! but when it comes to not working and having to depend on others it can be quite difficult if that a hindering process that I'm trying to get myself out of by looking for work but  hardly ever anyone is hiring so now I'm just desperate.  but once I do find work I would be able to focus on taking care of me once and for all. I can't allow myself to be like this and be in area  that I'm not even happy, I just can't keep neglecting myself too many years have been wasted and I'm just tired of it. I'm tired of being fat and all the problems associated with my weight its kind of sad at the fact that when I was going to start dating I never realized how self conscious I was of myself and that was kind of hard for me to handle.

School is crazy and worrisome as ever. I'm trying to transfer to Troy State Univ and go for my Ba in Psychology I made the decision that I'm going to be a marriage and family therapist instead of being a Counseling Psychologist I just don't think I have the patience for going  further to a doctorate and I want to help people not just label someone.

Well thats it for now.

Thanks for reading!

xoxoxo
Beverly

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